Rain

Rain, pittering on my window, on my skin, strolling down my nose and dropping onto my lips. Rain drenching my hair, splashing my jumper and down my spine making me shiver. Sat in the warm, laptop werring and my big headphones plonked on your head listening to some good music. Teddy, sleepy eyes, clean room, pasta, muffins. And yet, the rain is falling. And I like it, the sound soothes me after a long day of shopping and tiding.Sat with a bowl of pasta and a bottle of water. No it isn't a cup of tea and chocolate, but it was what i fancied. When it rains I sigh, huff, curse it, jump into bed and try to pretend that i don't have to go to school. So why, when i don't have to go anywhere and its dark outside do i enjoy it, what makes sunshine so much better than rain? Rain is cold, the sun is hot. Who decided that we are supposed love the sun so much more? What was it exactly that ran did to deserve the hatred. If it didn't rain, we would have no water. And if we had no fresh water we would die. It's strange that a thing that could so easily ruin your day or symbolize sadness, tears also bring relaxation and calm. Thats what is on most of the calming c.d's you can get isn't it? Rain. Why don't we "sing in the rain"?

Is it like that with everything? We love it, but only in certain conditions... I love rain but only if i don't have to go out in it. Is that how it is? Does it have to be that way or is it just down to attitude and optimism? And if thats the case, can we apply it to other things too. Like conditional love. I love you but only if you wear make up? it seems to me that if the sentence has a but in it, there is all ways a down side to what the person is about to say. Is that fair? No. It is not. And to make it worse. We never see the but coming. For a small word, it sure does have a big impact.

So as i sit here, listening to the rain patter on my window sill, blabbing about something that really only just popped into my head. And being desperate to write a blog, i wonder, does the weather really effect our moods? Or, is it just an excuse for us to blame our bad moods on? Which leads me to wonder... Why do we need an excuse to have a bad mood once in a while? We, as women especially, need to have a cob on. It's essential to our genes. Therefore, so are men. They get grouchy too. But. Do we really need to find excuses? If we don't have a valid reason to be angry or upset or in a silly pointless mood, that gets more than you upset. Then surely it is time to get our acts together and be happy. I want to be, but sometimes, i just get... lonely leading to sadness leading to annoyance. It's not the weather, its me.

Let the rain fall, let the sound wash through me and let it help me drift off to sleep as i lay in bed. Let it wash away the sadness in the world. Let it wash the sadness away from the hearts of my friends. And for the love of God! Let's start singing in the rain!