Talk

ok, where do i start? Everyone is talking all at once, but no one is listening. 


My heart is screaming out to you and you just refuse to hear, i love you but you cant tell, i want you to talk to me and tell me everything that you know and feel, but you wont, you dont want to know me any more and only because of one thing, you said that we would be friends forever but at this rate, we wont speak through college and for the rest of our lives. To you it was just talk, but i wanted to make it last. I held on as tight as i could, but you were pushing me away and i flew in the storm. Now your in the eye and everything is calm but on the outside im trying to fight my way back in but i cant get through the walls and im beginning to think that you dont want me to find you anymore. I love you so much and i dont think that you realise how hard it is for me to reach you, but my heart is aching and it just wont stop. Your squeezing the life out of me, without even noticing. I want to talk to you, but i get to you, and i know that it will cause problems that aren't worth it because in the end i'll loose more of you that i cant afford. 


I want you to scream into the sky with me, i want you to let it all out and share the load so that you arent so pressured, i want you to be as free as a bird and fly higher than any other with the wind under your wings. but i know that you wont, your too faithful. I want you to cry on my shoulder and be able to give you advice that i know would work and would solve all of your problems one by one, but life just doesnt work that way. Plus it isnt all down to you, and they cant just be solved like that. i want for you to tell me everything so that i know you inside and out, but you wouldnt want that, so i wont ask. I know that we will be friends until we are old granny, just because of our stubbornness because neither of us will back down. I wish that you could let loose and not be afraid that something you will say will upset someone. I wish you all the happiness that the world can give you and i hope that i can be by your side and see it with my own eyes.


How could you? You dont even know me but your taking away something so dear, today you said sorry, but i know that you arent, you never could be and never will be. your not sorry and even if you were you wouldnt do anything to make me feel better. I thought you were nice, but to you its just words. i know what you want, and now that you have it you wont let it go. You've changed things for me, and you dont even realise, you think that that is how things are, well its not. And unluckily for you, you will never find out. Too bad. You have changed your own relationship, for the worst, and now you will never know what she is really like. Dont get me wrong i dont want to feel this way, and trust me i am happy for you, but please. Is all i can ask. 


Everyone talks but, no ones knows the difference between hearing and listening. You just have to listen, open your ears because there are alot of things that you dont understand. i love you but you dont care, because to you "I love you" is just words and "sorry" means nothing. I dont just talk. To me its not just words. Dont leave me out in the cold.