Yes. Ok, i know its as cheesy as cheddar, but it came to me in the middle of the night that those four aspects are what a lot of us run our lives by. Aren't they? We think of something "Inspiration", We find the "motivation" to carry out our dreams, we may fail a few times but if we want it bad enough our "Desperation" will fade, then after all of the hard work and as long as you keep trying you will reach your "Destination". And that is the sweetest victory, to reach a goal out of sheer determination and, faith. Wouldn't that be the greatest feeling? I couldn't think of any other. To get somewhere or do something and think "yeah, i did that" and surely your heart could explode.
We start at the place where most things do, at the start. Inspiration. A big thing. I often find myself struggling to find it, even for the smallest things, what shall i write my next blog about? What shall i wear tomorrow? What do i want to see before die? Everything we do is inspired by something else. What do you want to be when you get old? Where do you want to be in ten years? A question i have heard many times? But that isn't what i think that inspiration is about. Isn't it more important to think about tomorrow and the next day before we think about ten years in the future? Isn't the NOW more important? Isn't that why its the present? Because that now really is a gift. Different people get inspiration from different places. They see a beautiful sight. A certain sound. Smell. Voice? They may find it from a piece of text. They find it in the world they live in. Or maybe from the stars. Personally, i don't know. I wish i could but its just something i haven't found yet. Mind you, i haven't lived long enough to know quite yet. I've been in school for ten of my fifteen years. That hasn't given me much time to explore. Or have i been wasting the time i have been given? I don't know, i wonder now, will i ever? Inspiration is all around us. You just have to see and listen, sometimes only looking and hearing just isn't good enough.
Now, here is, where i believe, we reach the hardest part of out journey. Finding the motivation to get up get out there and discover. Isn't it easier to just not bother? To just say, oh never mind, maybe tomorrow? You would think so, wouldn't you? But then, you denying yourself, and that isn't fair, now is it? Especially if it involves someone else, how selfish to deny yourself and someone else. Im not having a go, don't get me wrong, i do it all the time, and i am ashamed. I just don't know where to find the motivation. I mean, what is it? Where does it come from? And how do i get hold of some? Maybe its just a me thing. Hmm, well if it is, i hope that i grow out of it, i think that its partly will power too, which i have none of. I think that's bad, maybe i should put some of my stubbornness into those and maybe it will help, everyone knows i have enough to share. I need a job. So why haven't i got out there and given my details out yet? They aren't going to come and find me! To go out there and meet new people, i love my friends, more than any of them could ever imagine, but it couldn't hurt to find that special someone? Could it? Looking harder may help me to see better. Its time for me to decide what I'm going to do myself. I need to find time to find myself. Find my place of motivation.
Desperation. If the journey is started, sometimes it doesn't turn out quite to plan. In fact, rarely do things in life turn out exactly turn out how we want them too, but that doesn't mean that we have to just give up and move on to the challenge. Will you ever finish that one? I don't understand how someone can begin a journey, have the end in their sight just to give up because something doesn't quite work out how they wanted it too. Sometimes all you need to do is add on one simple factor. You wouldn't eat half a slice of cake and then chuck the rest away because you got bored of it! Why do the same to something that has cause more effort and hard work. Why just waste that time. Sometimes a slight twist can make things seem better and then all that work would be worth it again. If you fail you need to get back up again. Peeling your self up off of that road could be your turning point. Picking yourself up and brushing away the road dust could be that last stage. Where you see the glimpse of that shiny city over the hill. You shouldn't wait for the traffic behind you to take over, so see if your ok. Relying on yourself is the way it needs to be, its your dream, no one will carry you there. You need to do it. Else you wouldn't feel half the satisfaction you would if you did all the work your self.
Destination. You reach your place. They thing that you shed tears over. And that feeling. Wow. Your journey is done. The pain finished. All parts completed. Breathe in the air you deserve. Feel that blow over. Move on. But never forget. You completed a challenge. Take it with you wherever you go. Take the memory with you and use it. You accomplished something you worked for. And for not giving up. You deserve the world.
It may be a mad one, but its yours.
Cherish it. Love it. Use it.
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