Quote of the Day

Regardless of my having to want to change my lovely blog theme - thing, nothing, as per usual has been done towards changing it. I thought about it and thought about it, then realized that i had more important things to think about, like my english essay, or my maths exam, for example. And as much as i adore my blog, i did need to get my priorities straight. That, is very hard to say. But unfortunately, as much as it pains me to say, school... is... more... important... sort of, i guess that these results sort of determine what my life is going to like, so i might as well try hard. Not that i could resist the urge anyway, i'm too much of a goody-two-shoes to do any different. I wonder sometimes though, why exactly people can just laze around and not do any work and simply distract everyone else? What do they get a kick out of being shouted at? How can they just put what they're learning at risk? I mean, maybe its just me and my "lust for knowledge". Sure, i dont full on concentrate the whole time, thats just hard but why bother to get yourself kicked out of the class and learn sweet F.A?

Anyway, i had my first exam of year 11 on tuesday, maths, two hour long paper. I finished in an hour, and just sat there, shivering with back ache. I have another one in the morning and have decided not to revise because i dont want to stress myself out, she says picking up maths book. Busted, i'm distracting myself. I cant help it! I'm worried, i already know that i got two of the questions wrong on the last paper, so i have decided, that i'm not just going to sit there bored in the morning, im going to check and double check and triple check if i have time, because i really want my C. Which is as high as i can get. I have the chance to do the B grade work to see if i can get one in the summer but, do i want the pressure? Not really, and i will get pressured, because i am incapable of chilling with an exam looming before me, and im happy with a C. I'm more interested in my English grades. Those are the ones I'm interested in. Plus, if i have those lessons to do coursework or revision, that will take some of the pressure off from at home! That way, i can chill and be more pleasant towards the family. Maybe...

Anyway, getting to the point, here is my quote of the day, seems i'm struggling with motivation and feel as though i never succeed ....

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.

- Winston Churchill 

Is there a key to success? Or have we all been fooled? I get the feeling that even though we have all been told that all we need to finds the key to success and that once we do all the doors will open for us. But, is there really a key? Surely, if success is supposed to be as satisfying as they say it is, aren't we the keys? Dont we make our own choices? Our own decisions when it comes to our lives? Who says that we phsically need to find the key to success. Don't we just need to find that key two unlock that part of ourselves that will find the thing you can be successful at or in. You are the key to your success!!

Catch up!

Having started many posts and then later deleting them, i was starting to get a little sad. Had i lost my flow, and if so how long would it last? Its been gone for ages, i struggled even to write my english essay so when i realized that my flow had disappeared from fiction too! Maybe i had been just preoccupied with coursework and revision or just being too damn tired. However, in the past week i have read two books! Yeah, i know i haven't really been able to go anywhere because of the snow, but its still quite bad that i haven't been able to do coursework. I just cant focus. So i began to re-write my story, which by the way i wont be posting, firstly because i want to get it published, and second because it would take me years to post the thing. So at first i wanted to write it, alternating between characters perspective, i read a book like it before, called North Child? Or something like that. Anyway i really liked it so i tried it my self, it worked quite well but i realized that maybe it would be better for me to write it third, that way i could zoom into one person more easily rather than having to change chapters, its annoying though, im so used to writing in first person so i keep doing accidentally... oops.

Well thats a start. Again, i changed my career path, i figured being a journalist would be interesting but having read my most recent book i figured that the job could be kind of dangerous, and not only that i wouldn't know how to write about death and pain. I would get to emotional involved connecting it to myself somehow, trying to understand what exactly the victim was going through, and i wouldn't gossip about celebrities, so i let it go. Still wanting to be an author i figured as i was reading and noticing slight mistakes, i could be the one to correct them, and get to read these brilliant books for money. Being paid for something that i love doing. Plus i could pretty much choose how i do it, therefore, i would still have time to write my own material. Simple.

Plus i applied for college yesterday, its weird it feels like only yesterday i was getting nervous of high school, i know that life is a journey but you don't expect to fly though it, life should at least be strolled though, sometimes you need to be somewhere for that little bit longer. Still, college has been applied for so they should get back to me! Scary stuff.

So, whats been going on? Not a lot, having finished school for Christmas i went to see my dad, who was ill with the flew thing that i had a couple of weeks ago, which now my mum has too, i feel bad but I'm not the only one who could have given it to them at the end of the day. Then i went down to my lovely friends bless her, the four of us crazy people danced ate and just plain simply made fools of ourselves. I had a good night and i needed it it was the last time before Christmas i would probably see them again. I was supposed to see one of them again on Monday but because of the snow, lovely Exeter was at a stand still. So looks like i will be travelling up there tomorrow! With little brother in tow, as my sister isn't coming home now until tomorrow, fair enough though the snow is really thick. Well i really need to go up tomorrow so hopefully, we will be in luck and the weather will be permitting, other wise Christmas presents will be late this year... so annoying, but at least i know exactly what i need. I'm going to be writing a list, my i feel like santa!

I don't feel as excited as i normally do though. Maybe its because i know what I'm getting this year, but i cant help that i suppose. I wanted what i wanted. Maybe i will tomorrow, i might get up early and download some christmas music to pump my legs to when walking. Not that i will be able to walk that fast but, never mind!