Rain

Rain, pittering on my window, on my skin, strolling down my nose and dropping onto my lips. Rain drenching my hair, splashing my jumper and down my spine making me shiver. Sat in the warm, laptop werring and my big headphones plonked on your head listening to some good music. Teddy, sleepy eyes, clean room, pasta, muffins. And yet, the rain is falling. And I like it, the sound soothes me after a long day of shopping and tiding.Sat with a bowl of pasta and a bottle of water. No it isn't a cup of tea and chocolate, but it was what i fancied. When it rains I sigh, huff, curse it, jump into bed and try to pretend that i don't have to go to school. So why, when i don't have to go anywhere and its dark outside do i enjoy it, what makes sunshine so much better than rain? Rain is cold, the sun is hot. Who decided that we are supposed love the sun so much more? What was it exactly that ran did to deserve the hatred. If it didn't rain, we would have no water. And if we had no fresh water we would die. It's strange that a thing that could so easily ruin your day or symbolize sadness, tears also bring relaxation and calm. Thats what is on most of the calming c.d's you can get isn't it? Rain. Why don't we "sing in the rain"?

Is it like that with everything? We love it, but only in certain conditions... I love rain but only if i don't have to go out in it. Is that how it is? Does it have to be that way or is it just down to attitude and optimism? And if thats the case, can we apply it to other things too. Like conditional love. I love you but only if you wear make up? it seems to me that if the sentence has a but in it, there is all ways a down side to what the person is about to say. Is that fair? No. It is not. And to make it worse. We never see the but coming. For a small word, it sure does have a big impact.

So as i sit here, listening to the rain patter on my window sill, blabbing about something that really only just popped into my head. And being desperate to write a blog, i wonder, does the weather really effect our moods? Or, is it just an excuse for us to blame our bad moods on? Which leads me to wonder... Why do we need an excuse to have a bad mood once in a while? We, as women especially, need to have a cob on. It's essential to our genes. Therefore, so are men. They get grouchy too. But. Do we really need to find excuses? If we don't have a valid reason to be angry or upset or in a silly pointless mood, that gets more than you upset. Then surely it is time to get our acts together and be happy. I want to be, but sometimes, i just get... lonely leading to sadness leading to annoyance. It's not the weather, its me.

Let the rain fall, let the sound wash through me and let it help me drift off to sleep as i lay in bed. Let it wash away the sadness in the world. Let it wash the sadness away from the hearts of my friends. And for the love of God! Let's start singing in the rain!

Catch up!

Having started many posts and then later deleting them, i was starting to get a little sad. Had i lost my flow, and if so how long would it last? Its been gone for ages, i struggled even to write my english essay so when i realized that my flow had disappeared from fiction too! Maybe i had been just preoccupied with coursework and revision or just being too damn tired. However, in the past week i have read two books! Yeah, i know i haven't really been able to go anywhere because of the snow, but its still quite bad that i haven't been able to do coursework. I just cant focus. So i began to re-write my story, which by the way i wont be posting, firstly because i want to get it published, and second because it would take me years to post the thing. So at first i wanted to write it, alternating between characters perspective, i read a book like it before, called North Child? Or something like that. Anyway i really liked it so i tried it my self, it worked quite well but i realized that maybe it would be better for me to write it third, that way i could zoom into one person more easily rather than having to change chapters, its annoying though, im so used to writing in first person so i keep doing accidentally... oops.

Well thats a start. Again, i changed my career path, i figured being a journalist would be interesting but having read my most recent book i figured that the job could be kind of dangerous, and not only that i wouldn't know how to write about death and pain. I would get to emotional involved connecting it to myself somehow, trying to understand what exactly the victim was going through, and i wouldn't gossip about celebrities, so i let it go. Still wanting to be an author i figured as i was reading and noticing slight mistakes, i could be the one to correct them, and get to read these brilliant books for money. Being paid for something that i love doing. Plus i could pretty much choose how i do it, therefore, i would still have time to write my own material. Simple.

Plus i applied for college yesterday, its weird it feels like only yesterday i was getting nervous of high school, i know that life is a journey but you don't expect to fly though it, life should at least be strolled though, sometimes you need to be somewhere for that little bit longer. Still, college has been applied for so they should get back to me! Scary stuff.

So, whats been going on? Not a lot, having finished school for Christmas i went to see my dad, who was ill with the flew thing that i had a couple of weeks ago, which now my mum has too, i feel bad but I'm not the only one who could have given it to them at the end of the day. Then i went down to my lovely friends bless her, the four of us crazy people danced ate and just plain simply made fools of ourselves. I had a good night and i needed it it was the last time before Christmas i would probably see them again. I was supposed to see one of them again on Monday but because of the snow, lovely Exeter was at a stand still. So looks like i will be travelling up there tomorrow! With little brother in tow, as my sister isn't coming home now until tomorrow, fair enough though the snow is really thick. Well i really need to go up tomorrow so hopefully, we will be in luck and the weather will be permitting, other wise Christmas presents will be late this year... so annoying, but at least i know exactly what i need. I'm going to be writing a list, my i feel like santa!

I don't feel as excited as i normally do though. Maybe its because i know what I'm getting this year, but i cant help that i suppose. I wanted what i wanted. Maybe i will tomorrow, i might get up early and download some christmas music to pump my legs to when walking. Not that i will be able to walk that fast but, never mind!

Quote of the Day!

I think that this quote pretty much speaks for itself. I love it and i think that its so true, humans make mistakes because they're born too, i sure as hell have made my fair share and i think deep down you know you have too, no one is perfect. No you probably haven't made as many as you think you have, because some mistakes are made for good reason, with better outcomes. Marilyn Monroe was right, we have the bad things to remind us exactly what we love! Treasure them. Your beautiful. Appreciate yourself, others already do.

Peace out, Georgie. xx

Quote of the Day!!

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another 

 - William Shakespeare 

Quote of the Day!

A friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you just the same.

- Elbert Hubbard

Daily Quote / Quote of my Day

Im really sorry, i knew i would be bad at this :/ I'm terrible i know ... I cant promise that I'm going to be able to post a quote every single day at this rte, and you got to give me some sympathy, i am in year 11 after all, I'm sorry that i haven't done a proper post for such a long time either. I just don't know what exactly to write about ... I will think about it when I'm not trying to get rid of this bug thing i have at the moment.... Cough, cold, headaches, hot flushes, the list goes on. Its doing my head in.

Anyway it wont be a daily quote but a quote of the day sort of thing, when i have one or if i remember / have time to post one.

So here's today's

Life is like a piano, 

what you get out of it depends on how you play it, 

Right now, your not playing it too well

I've had this picture forever and been totally in love with it from first glance, and i always wanted to accompany it with a blog, but i never really wrote one to go with it very well. I bet i will write one that would fit it perfectly now, that is if i ever write one again. Sad times.

Everyone has days when they think that they aren't playing their piano too well, or someone isn't playing it too you or a friend well at all, we all have our days and its sad when someone has to go through a rough patch. Sometimes people go though too many patches, and as a friend of those people its hard to watch, you want to step in and just pull them out and take it all for them, but, you cant, they need to deal with it themselves and the majority would rather you didn't, would you want them to do the same to you? Besides because of the way that life pans out, you'll get your own amount of mess later on that you'll have to act as a cleaner for. I hate seeing my friends sad, but i know that all i can do is be there for them, its hard when you want to talk to the hurter, give them a piece of your mind, but as i have learned from experience, the only thing you can do for them is be happy and support them, but they need to sort out their problems for themselves. I know that it sounds harsh, but its true, as sad and frustrating as that may be, there isn't anything you can do to change it.

I wish that i could help you, my best friend get through what you hide, but i can't. Its a sad fact of life that can't be changed. I wish i could pull you back and take it all for you, save you from the tears that have streamed and stained your cheeks. I wish i could save you from pain. I wish that i could take it all away, i know that i haven't been the best that i could ever be. And I'm sorry for that. I'm here now, and i hope that helps or at least counts for something. I will always be here, i love you, and i hope you know that now if you had missed all those signs before.

I think that counts as half a blog... hmm, think i just got a bit carried away then. Oopsies.

Anyhow, for the next one,

Peace out ,, Georgie. xx

Daily quote - trial

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.

- Confucius

A beauty quote, kind of a shame really thats its true, but i guess that those that do see the beauty are special and worth being close with.