High school.

They say that your school years are the best years of your life. But, i dont think they truly remember the emotion of it all, the stress, the fall outs, the revision, the exam pressure, the friend issues, the lack of confidence in everything you start, the pressure of everything, we need jobs, we need money, we need revision guides and books and things to help us relax. But, i'm a teenager, i have few responsibilities, more than some, less than others, i need a job. But do i really have the time? I can barely cope with the amount of coursework i get let alone a sport or a job at the same time. There is so much stress and you feel that you cant share how you feel because you know that everyone is feeling equally as stressed out as you are and you don't want to lay your worries on them. They already have enough to worry about.

I'm sat here and it is twenty to seven. I had meant to have a whole day doing coursework and ended up getting next to nothing done. My nerves are frayed. I'm supposed to be on my holiday, not doing an English exam, or writing a whole drama log. I'm stressed out and I messed up everyones dinner. I can't cook for shit. oh well, I'm not going to eat it, i have been stuffing my face with kit-kat's all day. And no, I'm not proud of it. So, now i am chewing on my baby blanket and watching the Lion King because i'm too pissed off to do anything else. I tried, honestly i have but i cant do it anymore, maybe i need to get out. Well, I'm going up town tomorrow so i should hopefully feel better. Maybe I'm tired. I don't know, i knew i needed a break but i haven't done anything for the past four days. So, i don't know whats going on.

Maybe its because i will be sixteen on monday and that people begin expecting certain things from you or that you do certain things at that age but, i still haven't been kissed. I know that it everything will be exactly the same but I just want to be a kid again, life was so much easier when your parents did everything for you, dont get me wrong, i do like the independence and the fact that it should be easier for me to get a job, but its what other people think. It's always what other people will think. Maybe that is why i always think so much of myself, because others expect so much. Your teachers expect you to get high grades, your parents expect you to be a good person and your friends expect you to be there for them. Of course i would do all of that anyway, and i enjoy doing my best in school and be there for my friends. Its me.

Excuse me while i sing a long to Hakuna Mattata...

So, i guess i will have to keep chugging along. Hakuna Mattata.And doing what i do best... not that i have figured that out yet. Anyway i need to think of thing to sell on eBay to fund my new obsession... eBaying.

I'm going to get back to writing my new story. I will say no more however as i still have a long way to go!

So peace out,
Georgie.

Quote of the Day.

Friendship is...

about friends, real friends, that are one in a million.

They feel so familiar, when you go to meet them

for the first time, 

and so loyal that you'd trust them 

with your greatest

secrets, fears and hopes. 

moody monday treats!

As it is monday and i was having one of those days where i just couldn't stop daydreaming, stop thinking, i couldn't tell you what about because either i cant remember or i simply wasn't thinking at all, anyhow i was thinking i would do something new, hey i might even make it a feature, not a fixed one because i don't seem to be able to keep those up, i have a brain like a colander (bigger holes), believe it or not. i guess i have been thinking all too much recently at the moment too, i guess because people keep bringing it up or i'm going through another phase boyfriends are, or seem to be, popping up. A lot. Not that i mind, because i know for a clear fact i don't want a boyfriend, i cant even handle my school work and a minor social life, let alone a guy as well. Well, if someone came along that i really liked and whatever, of course i wouldn't hesitate to ... whatever, but im not going to look for something im not looking for, what would be the point.

ANYWAY!! Getting back to the point, here are a couple of things i am really into at the moment! 

Lets start with something i know i have shown you before, but bugger it. I still love these jeans, if i could get away with them... and had the money i would buy a pair like THAT. 

And yes, i am so sad i just clicked my fingers!! 

Old books. I think that for a while now i have been a little obbsessed with books, and as a teenager, its not something i shout about, yeah my friends know i read a lot, i guess it relaxes me to escape into a world that simply doesn't exist. But, old books are a wonder to me. Plus they smell great. I have proof, from my work experience, but that is a whole new kettle of fish. 

Alice. There was a program on a couple of well days ago i suppose, but it was a new and modern take of the Alice in Wonderland story. And maybe it was because it had Andrew-Lee Potts in it, i dont know, but i really quite enjoyed it, so im going to see if i can get hold of a copy to watch it again! 

Her eyes! I have a thing about eyeliner, but mine comes off so easily there never seems to be any point in me even putting any on. I just think that dark makeup on light eyes is kinda pretty. 

Red Lips. Call it weird, i dont mind, but i love read lipstick. I really want to wear it for my prom but i dont think i will be able to. Well, we'll see. I would wear it all the time, but... well i cant be bothered to think up an excuse for this one. 

Anyway i am going to bed, before i get distracted by something else pretty. Night!